How come the second year is harder?

On my way home from taking my Mom back to Tyler on New Year's Day, I had this crazy meltdown- out of nowhere, completely caught me off guard.  I called my dear friend Debbie, who totally understands, and the first thing she told me was " the second year is harder than the first".  Really.... not what I wanted to hear.  Why would this year be harder at Christmas when last year no one was here and this year everyone was here?  Why would this year be harder when God has so graciously comforted and provided continuously?  Maybe I just think that it should all be done and I am now okay for good.  I don't know, but I do know that God will continue to be faithful, even when I don't have a clue what is coming next or where He is going to lead me. He is much bigger than I ever thought and loves much more than I could ever have imagined.  I may feel lost and alone and scared some times but I can always come back to the truth that He will never leave me or forsake me.  As this new year begins, I pray that I will listen and wait on Him to show me what He wants and where He is leading.  I want to follow, I need to follow because I am truly lost without Him.